"Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity."
Today was one of those "too swift for those who fear" days. Time is moving ahead at full speed and I am fearful that it's only going to move quicker. I just blinked and my oldest (Cole) went from being in Kindergarten to Jr. High today. Now I have to say that although I am sad that he is all "growed" up I am happy for him too because I know that he is embarking on a fun journey! I loved Jr. High! And I know he will too! He is on his way to becoming the young man he was destined to be! He is on his way to experience things that will stick with him for the rest of his life! I just really hope he makes each moment count and enjoys the ride!
I was already a boob today because of my baby boy moving upward and onward, so it didn't help that I also sorted out Sara's dresser drawers today! It was time to get rid of her small clothes and as I put each item that was too small in a pile, my heart grew even more sad. My baby, baby girl is growing so fast too! And soon, the baby phase that I love sooooo much will be over. There is no need for me to hold onto those tiny clothes, because I am slowly accepting that my baby days are over! I cringe even as I type this because letting go of that stage in my life is tough! If it were up to me, I'd have a thousand more. But our family just may be complete (unless divine intervention intervenes, wink wink). We have 5 beautiful children and as my husband would say, "Our quiver is full."
And if that wasn't enough to make me cry, it was Beck's meet your teacher day and it really hit me that he will be gone all day long being in first grade. Which then made me embrace that my baby girl Kate will also be going to Kindergarten. Lots and lots of changes, ones that I knew were coming, but now that they are here, I am dying! If Liam qualifies for services with the early childhood center then there is also the possibility that he will be heading to preschool this fall so that would mean that 4 of my 5 children will be in school. (I'm secretly hoping that Liam will not qualify so I can have him home for one more year.) But jikers! Where does the time go? I like the "but for those who love, time is eternity" part of the poem because it does give me hope that I will have an eternity to spend with those I love! I may not be able to rewind time but I can look to the future with faith that it will only get better.
Time is a strange thing. But I am grateful that I have this time to enjoy my children. Today has been a nice reminder that my children just want and need my time as much as I want and need theirs. And I, myself just need to make each moment count and enjoy the ride, warp speed ahead!
|Cole, Kindergarten 2006|
|Cole, 7th Grade 2013|